All Smiles

I had probably the best bagel that has ever crossed my taste buds this morning. But I probably shouldn't wake up this early on my days off because now I'm hungry again. lol. And I only ate 2 hours ago. lol

Today has been an amazing day. I've been in such a great mood and I think it's going to stay like this for a while. This is my life and I should enjoy every moment of it. Let go of things from the past because they really don't need to make them to the future if I don't want them to. And my past is really nothing that I would like to carry to the future.

I'm going to be a mommy in just about 6 months and I know that it's going to pass too fast so I need to slow down and take every moment by moment and enjoy it as much as possible. I've never been more excited for something in my entire life. Even though I know a lot of people are looking down on what is to come for my life, I don't care. It is a blessing and God would not have placed this amazing miracle in my hands if He didn't have greater meaning for me, William and the baby.

So today I get the day off work :) and do all the laundry that has been piling up. And it feels amazing to be doing this. I want this to be my full time job but plus baby. lol

I love being happy. :] Life has been so amazing.
Once I decided to be happy, and be happy with just me, things did a one eighty. it's so great.

I'm so thankful for everyone telling me to just be happy with myself. It has helped so immensely. :]

Thanksgiving has been so amazing so far.

picked up gramma and she told me about the flirt in her apartment complex. haha.
Delicious food (made with love of course)
Aunt and uncle and Cousin came over
chatted about the norm,
then I forced them to play Apples to Apples.
and they LOOOOOOOOOOOOOVED it.
we were laughing so hard. it felt soooo nice :]


waiting for my favorite couple and baby to get home so I can go chill with them :]
Then Crazy Black Friday early in the morning
Im so excited.


Live Love.

As I'm sitting here waiting to go to my new favorite people's house and thinking about why he's probably not coming with me I wonder to myself, "if he's not willing to try to give me what I want, does he deserve my time and energey?" and thinking clearly the answer is no.
Ive always been a strong believer in "if someone wants to be with you they will make it work no matter what" but are my feelings, attitude, and over all well being worth trying to make him happy? Thats a definite no.
After my biggest break up not too long again I realized i needed to be more than content, I need to be completely happy. I know ill have bad days regardless, but when being upset is consuming me more than being happy, something is wrong. And I know now that it's relying on other people to make me happy.
Every morning I need to smile that I woke up this morning. be happy and sprinkle a little happiness in my breakfast.
In wardly thoughts will show on the outside. :]
Constantly thinking that my life is great and could only get better from where I am. I can not stand being so upset any more. smiling is all Im going to do any more :] yay